How do I put into words what I feel right now? What I’m feeling for this sweet boy of mine? It’s harder than I thought it would be…but only because there is so much that could be said!
Bryce is 17 today!!
Man…I can’t believe it….that seems to fall off my tongue so easily..yet it is so hard all at the same time!
He was my “rainbow baby”! Yet today…he is a young man…and he has such a special part of my heart. My heart swells with love for this kid. He is passionate about the things he loves…but mostly about the people he loves. He has his head on straight…and other than a few “teen things”….he truly is a great kid! To say I’m blessed would be putting it very mild!
He has a plan…and he is working hard on it. He is a junior in high schools carrying a 13 hour college-credit load this semester. He is on track to graduate with his Associate’s Degree in Allied Health (before he receives his High School diploma) and then take the classes he needs from there to become an RN. From there…he is already networking…talking to people…and seeing where things might take him.
But beyond being the proud mom of his academic endeavors….I’m mostly a proud mom because of this boy’s heart. He loves Jesus. He serves others. Even when nobody is looking…he is serving. He is tirelessly working to make other’s experience in our church something that will help them see the Love of Christ. Ya’ll….he is truly…the salt of the earth! And…God chose ME to be his MOM!!
Even after all the mess ups…after tragedy and difficulty. This messed up momma got another chance…and God…loved me so much…he gave me BRYCE!! Priceless…he is truly priceless to me!
I woke up this morning and remembered the “torture” I had to endure just before he was born…(i.e. Version before c-section) But as soon as I saw his face…all I could do was kiss it! I can’t get enough of his hugs and kisses. He stops me at least once a day and gives me the biggest bear hug ever! I live for these moments.
He is growing into such a wonderful young man. Yes…I know he will eventually leave and another young lady will be the one kissing his face and getting his hugs….so for now….I cherish those moments with my son!
The bittersweet part of today….. of knowing his brothers didn’t make it to be this old…creeps into my thoughts on days like today… But the power I do have today….is in my choice. And today….I choose to not miss out on the son I have here in front of me celebrating today….because I’m too busy caught up being sad about the 3 sons I didn’t get to celebrate their 17th birthday with because they weren’t here. I refuse to let that happen! I do have control…and that is the power of choice God gave me.
He has promised me we will all spend eternity together….of this I am certain. So my today…is spent celebrating the life of Bryce. Today I celebrate the 17 years he has been here with me. I celebrate who is is becoming and the love I have for him.
He is a world changer. He is a Jesus lover. He is a happiness chooser. He is a loving server. He is a silly, fun-haver.
All my love, ~mom