I bet you are wondering why in the world I named my blog “My life as a comma”……. Well, let me share with you the story behind it!
I have a story that is full of tragedy and yet at the same time a message of hope has risen up out of those ashes! I have been asked to share my story many times….which I generally don’t have a problem with. But when people started saying things like, “You should write a book!” and “You need to be a national speaker!”, well….let’s just say I was a little hesitant.
Now, those of you that knew me growing up will probably have a hard time with believing my hesitancy! That is because while I was growing up I was a dancer. Not just any dancer….I was a center stage dancer! I loved the spotlight and performing and being in front of people! But there is just something about using a story so tragic and seeming to self promote using this tragedy. Hesitant….. almost to the point of being defiant. Defiant to what God had planned for me.
I didn’t feel special. Just because something bad happened and I lived through it….didn’t make me anything more than anybody else….not in my mind. I mean, everyone has a book somewhere in there lives they could write. At least a chapter…..on life. So how was my story so special?
Well…it isn’t. I finally was able to take the star off my door and take myself off of center stage….and REALIZE…this isn’t my story. It is just a small part of God’s story. I believe in God as an all knowing, omnipotent God. One who knows the beginning and the end. I believe He knew my story before I was created. I trust that since the end of the story has already been written we must be somewhere in the “middle” of His story.
So I decided.. I could go on about my life and just exist. Just stay in my part of the world and not really go beyond it. OR….. I could do what I feel like God is leading me to do. I can share the hope of my story as His story and be a comma. You see, a comma makes us pause. A comma can change the way a sentence is read and interpreted. So I choose to be a comma. I want my life story to make someone pause. To make someone stop and think that if I can survive with God’s strength, then maybe they can survive whatever they are going through in their own journey…..with God’s strength.